From My Horse...
✨ THIS IS US ✨ Dancing together at the horse show just afew weeks ago (August 17/18) at Amberlea Meadows (near Edmonton, AB)
I talk so much about my horse and how much she facilitates me..... it happened again!
We have been training over the winter, the Flying lead changes in the canter. We are getting them, but they are still shaky, uncertain. We did show at Third Level in July. We did pretty good actually! We scored higher in the Trott and walk than we ever had before..... then came the changes. The first one was ok, he second one was OH MY... then everything after that was tension / anxiety etc.....
The second day of the show, I could feel so much tension and anxiety in my horse, we didn't actually get to complete out test because the judge saw "Irregular rhythm" and rang the bell. We were excused from the ring.
It has been 2 years since my horse's injury, I was concerned about some physical pain..... and I knew the tension and anxiety can also create the Irregular rythm.
We came home, she had afew days off, she felt good. Knowing this next show was coming up, my approach to out training became "WE ARE GOING TO WORK HARD AND DO WELL AT THIRD LEVEL" 🫣 after 3 rides like this I rode her and SHE FELT REALLY OFF! (sore on her left front). I was devastated, I was frustrated, I had to look at all the things. This was also occurring in conjunction with me opening up to LOVE. She was showing me something, was I willing to see it?
The question I started to ask "what would love do?" ..... LOVE would take some time, be patient, have no expectations.
SO, I started giving her time, I went back to BEING with her, brushing her, letting her know that I had her back and I was here. She dint have to work hard to earn my love.
How much of that was ME?! thinking I have to work had to to be valuable, to earn love?
This was blowing my mind!
I could see where I was using her to PROVE, to prove we could do third level, to prove we are good at this..... it wasn't from love, or enjoyment.
EVEN THOUGH I DO LOVE IT.... it was so weird! But then I had to question, do I really love it?
I asked Izzy to show me love, to show me what it's like to be loved. The images I got in my head were from when I was a little girl with my grandpa, and the horses <3 I started to cry..... THIS WAS LOVE, this is what being loved and loving is.
I loved horses horses right from the day I was born. We didnt have any then, but my auntie did and every time we would visit my grandparents would run up to grandpa and ask him to take me to the horses. HE SAID YES, every time. No matter how long his day was, or what he had going on, he would take me. I remember we never spoke, we would simply BE together with the horses.....
I cried so much remembering this. It actually brings a tear to my eye typing it out again. He passed away about 20 years ago, I was devastated. I never realized it in that moment, I created a belief, put up a barrier "Love ends in hurt" and literally never let myself love or be loved the way I did with grandpa before he died, because it Hurt o much to lose him....... Of course I know his spirit is and always will be with me. I could see in my relationships, with my horses, with my kids that I was protecting them and me from LOVE, from being loved, from loving me because in the end it hurts more.
This realization has changed everything for me in my life......
I decided then and there that if my mare is sound, we are going to make the show ring fun, easy and a place where we are confident. We are going to show second level.
Guess what?! she was sound the next time I rode her <3
I also started to grow this energy of love with her, by thinking of my grandpa and our time with the horses... while I was with her.
This changed everything for us and I am proud to say "WE ROCKED IT".
Here is a video of us and our Second level test at the show.
Another thing with her at the Horse shows is that we could be having a really great ride in the warmup ring and the second we entered show ring I could feel her change. We would struggle to get the connection and relaxation. At first thought his must be me..... but I never felt nervous.......
I was chatting with Jamie Palmer, The coach I am learning Human Design from, about this. She mentioned, "did you know there is EQUINE DESIGN?"
WHAT?!
Yes, there is!
I know my horses birthdate, I didnt now exact time but I asked energetically and YES.... I looked up my horses design. She's a REFLECTOR HORSE.... meaning she has all open centres and she reflects & amplifies the environment around her!
OMG!
I learnt this before the show, this was the missing piece with the show ring. As soon as we would go into the ring she would be reflecting the energy of the show ring! WOW!
Knowing this, I started playing with the energy. Asking what it would be like for her to reflect and amplify the love and peace. I envisioned the show ring as an "etch - a - sketch" and wiping it clean right before we went in. I asked My teammates to contribute to "wiping the ring clean" and I put izzy and I in an energetic bubble together where it was JUST US.
It worked! and for the first time ever I felt what we had in the warmup ring, show up in the show ring!
Human Design never ceases to amaze me, and there's SO MUCH depth to it. I have been studying it for a year now and I AM STILL LEARNING MORE!
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